I’m going to let you in on a little bit of what’s been going on in my personal life lately. Fifthteen days ago my six year old came down with a horrible sickness. He ended up getting rushed and admitted to Lebonhuer Children’s Hospital and we stayed there for almost two full weeks.
Long story short, it started from what we thought was just a “stomach bug” to the Doctors, Physicians, Nurses and Specialists not ever actually finding out what exactly caused the sickness. I won’t go into a lot of detail about the series of events that happened during these 15 days but I will say this .. my baby got so sick to the point that only half of one of his lungs were working! It was seriously that bad BUT I’m proud to say that on the 16th day we were discharged from the hospital and able to go home!
Even upon leaving, there were still no answers as to “why” or “how” this sickness occurred. As a matter of fact, the Doctors and Specialists answers were, “We don’t know why or how this happened. All we can say at this point is that he healed himself and whatever was wrong seems to have corrected itself.” Although we were released to go home, we still have to see a specialist each week and my son also has a couple of weeks of recovery to go but he’s doing so much better now and I’m so proud!
Now the way my faith is set up .. I know it was nobody but God that healed my baby and corrected whatever did go wrong!! God never ceases to amaze me especially when He makes miraculous moves like this just to remind and show people who’s really boss!! Anyway, I said all that to say this – this 15 day sickness has been one hell of a journey! It’s been very long, hard and exhausting but absolutely worth it.
God has taught me so much during this particular journey that it’s not even funny. So many lessons learned! However, He is still teaching me some things.. even in the recovery process. I am still pretty overwhelmed not necessarily by the sickness but more so by how over crowded people are making my household feel and I know that it’s not intentional.
People are just really concerned and want to help in any way possible and that’s okay! Like we truly appreciate it but it’s really just getting to be too much. Our phones are constantly blowing up with text messages, phone calls, Facebook, Snapchat and Instagram messages to random visitors and pop ups … like I just cannot deal! Some people just don’t respect boundaries and it’s annoying.
There are a lot of people sending lots of love, positive vibes, encouraging words and then there are those who are voluntarily giving their unwanted advice, non-medical diagnosis from Google and even negative comments like, “Oh I hope he doesn’t die” or “this is bad scary, I’m afraid things will get worse.”
NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR THAT NEGATIVE NANCY BS!!
Today in my frustration, I realized that this is where God is working on me. I almost feel like He put a mirror in front of me and showed me an ugly part of myself that needs some work!! Call me crazy if you want but I heard God speak to my heart earlier today and He said, “Before you can get to the next level, you’ve gotta learn how to deal with people like this” and that was it!
For the most part, I think I’m pretty good when it comes to blocking out negativity and separating myself when things just get to be too much. Actually, I’m very good at that but I see now that when it comes to situations such as these… I suck!!
At first, I thought I was more frustrated from being tired and exhausted from being at the hospital so long with little to no rest or barely enough time to eat, shower or sleep but as time went on, I’ve realized that I’m more irritated mostly because people don’t respect boundaries and privacy and I almost feel like I’m gonna have to be rude in order to get my point across but I know that’s not the right thing to do either! I want to but in another sense God is like,“YOU BETTER NOT!” haha!!
So what exactly is it that I’m learning??
I’m learning how to express my frustrations with more calmness! I’m learning how to pray and approach God more about certain people before I open my mouth. I don’t want to come off as nasty and rude especially with this particular situation because I know that most people don’t mean any harm but I do want to be able to get it off my chest and say what needs to be said. I do believe in “nipping things in the bud” and not letting them get too far out of hand.
However, there is a certain way to do things and there’s a certain way to say it. I’m learning to choose God’s Way over mine a lot more here lately. If what needs to be said can’t be laced in love and come from a good place then it just doesn’t need to be said at all or at least not at that moment.
This is such a personal post for me. I don’t think I’ve ever shared current life lessons that I’m experiencing at the moment! Thanks for being a listening ear and letting me vent! You guys are amazing!!